Boot Camp T-minus 7 days.

Hello!

I can't believe I take the plunge into Tracy Anderson's boot camp in a week! I do have faith that I can do it, the blog of a friend of mine really inspired me. She did the boot camp despite life trying to get in her way.

Check her out at www.bombshelllolita.com

I actually got the idea from her blog to get the Mizuno Inspire shoes for my dance cardio. Great decision! If she was able to do it, I can too! 

I do admit, I am a little scared.  More like the fat girl who lives in my brain and took over is scared.  Lately i have gained even MORE weight from doing nothing and getting sucked into school.  I partially think my birth control MAY be to blame, but I don't really think so, as earlier in the year I was losing inches even without dieting.  I do notice that lately I have been VERY uncharacteristically indulging in sugary things, especially Coke. This has to stop. It's about to get a little personal here so bear with me.

I am afraid of the following things happening:

1. Afraid of having to get used to my new body when the time comes.

2. Afraid that people will treat me differently when I am smaller

3. FREEDOM from the prison that being obese has kept me in. Freedom of any kind is scary when you are  not used to it.

4. Afraid I will still find flaws in my body and continue to think that despite my efforts, I am still "fat" (this scares me the most) 

5. Afraid of adopting a new, healthy eating, active lifestyle

6. Afraid of falling off the wagon and losing all my efforts

7. Afraid that some of my friends will treat me differently when I lose weight.  I hear this happens a lot, actually.

8. Changing my entire eating habit, foods, exercise, etc. I will be giving myself a complete overhaul. 

I also need to make a last minute shopping list depending on when I actually go to the store. Hm. 

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